I fear this admiration will be the end of me

Shower me in blood, child
Shower me in lipstick

It's not like you're lingering
It's more like you're haunting

Glass eyed shape of color
Splashing against my small tube of insecurities

I can't mantain too high
When I'm left atop of shipwrecks just waiting for any floundering attempt
To come out like Dead Leaves striving for life

As they stick in my cloth
And this morbid stink makes me feel like

I have nowhere to belong beyond my own flawless magic cube
Each square - all built by me 
Bursting out glimy shadows
Absorbing me in kaleidoscope outbursts

I've said this
Even before it just is
Just happened
I've said this
You're making my mind go blank
Cracked, crumbling, burning.